Memory Lane Monday: Geeking Out or Panic Attack or Both?

It's not really a secret that I don't leave the house much. Boyfriend tends to have to coax me out into public events.  Most of the time, after all is said and done, a small part of me is generally content to have faced the fear and left the house, but mostly, I am just relieved to be home again.  But, every now and then, when I get home, I am so happy that Boyfriend pulled me outside of my comfort zone.  Last weekend was one such event.

Boyfriend found a free fan-film premiere at an event space in L.A. He ran it by me several weeks before we went, and I almost forgot about it until it came time to go. We were going to see a Harry Potter fan film (The Greater Good) and a Call of Duty fan series (935: A Nazi Zombie Series.) That night, I was still feeling the almost constant ache of homesickness, and fear that we'd made a terrible irreversible mistake in moving out here. So, I was slightly more surly and anxiety-filled than normal. Add all those feelings to a fancy room full of strangers, and you get a very cranky, awkward Jess.

I was immediately uncomfortable when we walked in. Everyone at the venue seemed to know each other, and I really wanted to just go into the corner and dig a giant hole to jump into so no one would look at me. Then things took a turn and I felt better and worse/more awkward at the same time. I looked at one of the posters for 935: A Nazi Zombie Series and saw a familiar face looking back at me. Yuri Lowenthal was starring in it! Me being uber-nerd that I am, I devoured Yuri's book he wrote with his wife, Tara Platt, and while I'm not hugely into anime, I am familiar with and a fan of Yuri's voice over work (seriously, who wasn't in love with the Prince of Persia's voice?! *Swoon*)

Sorry, Jakey, not even close.

After spotting Yuri on the poster, I turned to Boyfriend to exclaim, "Hey Yuri Lowenthal's in this!" But was cut short by the sight of the actual Yuri in person not 10 feet from me. At this point, I reached total nerd core reactor overload. The stress in my personal life mixed with my social anxiety, now mixed with a full blown geek-out was too much for my poor little psyche. I clammed up. I froze. I couldn't make words in my own head.  I found a nice corner to stand in and just stared into space. Boyfriend noticed the change and pointed out that he noticed that everyone appeared to know each other. This was not helping. I finally blurted out that Yuri Lowenthal and Tara Platt were here. It took a moment for it to register with Boyfriend who I was talking about, but he realized I was having some sort of inner meltdown and tried to help by coaxing me to go say hi. Again, I couldn't make words. So I just stared at them like a creeper.

Yes, I was the creeper

As I stood trying to make my legs move to walk over and say hi, Yuri walked by us and noticed my Paul and Storm "________ is the name of my _______ cover band" t-shirt. He stopped and told me my shirt was awesome and I almost melted. But I had an ice-breaker now. He had done the hard part for me. So, we talked about my shirt for a minute and then I finally blurted out that I was a fan and I really liked his book. And then we talked about how amazing Rob Paulsen is. It was really great talking to Yuri.

After the films were over I was feeling much better, but still awkward. After everyone was exiting the theater, and congratulating the filmmakers, I wanted to talk to Yuri one last time and say hi to Tara. Expecting to have to introduce myself to him again, I approached him timidly, but with a big smile. As soon as he saw me and Boyfriend his face lit up and he gave us both a big hug. We chatted for a moment more, said hi to Tara and then we all went on our separate ways. Yuri is like Rob Paulsen Jr. He is super nice and unassuming, he was hilarious in the film, and then when we tweeted him and Tara that night after we got home, they both responded.

Best. Anxiety Attack. Ever.

So, thanks Tara and Yuri for making this little nerd-girl feel better about life for a night!

And Then I Caught a Cold From Leonardo DiCaprio

I got to work on Martin Scorsese's new film The Wolf of Wall Street last Friday. To say that it was an amazing experience would be an understatement.

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My call time was 6am at a hotel in midtown. (I need to be somewhat vague about details because I have to honor the film's privacy. I don't want to get black-listed for being a chatty-Cathy.) When I got to holding, I assumed since the filming had been going on since last year, that I'd just be doing some B-roll crowd shots and junk. Amazingly, though, an AD came into our holding area after we'd been there for a couple hours to let us know how things worked on a Scorsese set, and how we were expected to behave when he was on set.  So first cool thing: I was actually getting to work on set with Martin Fucking Scorsese! "Marty" (as he goes by) expects absolute silence on set at all times and absolutely no cell phones and no picture-taking. If you broke these rules you would be kicked off set immediately and told to go home. Marty runs himself a tight ship. Then they sort of did a run-down of the scene and mentioned Leo. Second cool thing: Leonardo DiCaprio was in the scene we were filming! O. M. G. So, I got to spend all day in a room watching/working with Leo and Scorsese. Holy shit. I thought this alone would have been awesome enough. But it got a little bit better.

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As with most background gigs, there is a lot of waiting around doing nothing in between takes and shot setups. This gig was no different, except that there was definitely more excitement in the air than usual just because the vast majority of us had never worked on a Scorsese film before. Even so, I came prepared with my iPod, books, magazines, and my 3DS to fend off the boredom. Also, to stay awake. See, I was so pumped about working on this movie and so apprehensive about waking up early, that I could not for the life of me settle down and actually sleep Thursday night. I ended up just laying in bed until I had to wake up at 4am. Le sigh. I was so stupidly tired all day.

When it was time to go to set, everyone was buzzing about like intoxicated bees. The PAs quickly shushed us and lined all of us up to go take our places on set. Thankfully, the scene was a business seminar (sorry, gotta be vague, no spoilers) in the ballroom of a hotel which meant we all got to be sitting down. (Standing on set for 14 hours gets really old really fast.) Unfortunately for anyone sitting more than 7 rows back, they probably were not actually seen on camera. But, thems the breaks, kids. Fortunately for moi, I was in the 6th row on the aisle when it came to the group face shots, so I have a better chance of actually being in focus and seen in the film for about 3 seconds. But, I digress. 

Like this, except with Leo and Scorsese.

Once we were all placed and starting to get kind of antsy, Marty walked in. No fanfare. No introduction. Just boom there he was. A small wave of stunned silence washed over all of us in the room followed by quiet murmurs and excited whispers. I've honestly never worked on a set that was so quiet. It was kind of eerie at first, but by the end of the day I wished all sets could be quiet like this one. Marty chatted with his Director of Photography and other crew, then he turned and gave us a little nod and went to the back of the room behind a curtain where video village was set up. 

Then, Leo showed up. The ladies in the room were a little more vocal when he walked in -no one screamed or fainted or anything- but it was pretty balls-to-the-wall wonderful. Now, I want to make it clear that I've never been gaga in love with Leo. I've always thought he was easy on the eyes, but I've respected him and been impressed by him as an actor more than anything else (I mean did you see What's Eating Gilbert Grape?!) but never been head-over-heels in love with him. Even the year I went through my Bop and Tiger Beat faze and adorned my walls and closet doors with cute boys, I maybe had one pic of Leo in the mix (my heart-throbs of choice were Jonathan Taylor Thomas and Johnny Depp. Lord, I'm old.) Those pictures on my walls were quickly replaced with Star Wars posters and other geekery, but, again, I digress. 

I told you all this in the hopes that you can understand how impressive it is in the presence of Leo when he's working even for someone who isn't obsessed with him. It was amazing to see him switch from producer mode back to Leo mode and then right into his character in the blink of an eye. Boom producer talking film stuff with Marty. Boom Leo dicking around in the corner drinking some tea. Then BOOM in character and acting the pants off of everyone in the room (not literally, unfortunately.) He has this amazing presence. It's commanding but very calm and comfortable. I could spend hours in a room with him and feel amazing. Oh wait, I DID.

During one of the first takes we did, he was saying his lines, talking to the room, standing maybe 15 feet in front of me when he locked eyes with me and stared at me for a good beat while he was emphasizing something. I will say that again: 
Leonardo DiCaprio STARED INTO MY EYES! 

Again, I'm not gooey in love gaga about Leo, but when he locked eyes with me it was like he was speaking directly to me and no one else for that moment and I almost peed my pants, you guys. My whole body went hot and tingly like I was having a panic attack or like my blood sugar was low, but it was just every nerve ending in my body celebrating at once and then exploding my mind.

Seriously, it was like this, you guys.

And then my body melted. I literally felt like jello the rest of the day. Maybe it was the fact that by the time I actually went to bed that night, I'd been awake for nearly 36 hours, but I'm pretty sure it's because Leo fried my innards with his movie star eyes and his awesomeness. But I stayed in character even with all the melting and exploding.

In all seriousness, it was a once-in-a-lifetime super cool day for no other reason than to watch two amazingly talented legends in the film industry do what they do best. I got to sit and watch them work. I got to observe and learn from them. And I got paid for it. Nothing like being paid to stare at Leonardo DiCaprio all day, huh? I have the coolest fucking job ever. And did I mention that this was my first time working on a feature film? That's right, my first time working on a feature and it was a Martin Scorsese picture. God. Damn.

Oh yeah and the best part? Leo had a cold or a sinus infection or something. So, that mixed with his smoker's cough spewed millions of germy germs all over the lovely enclosed space we all shared for 14-ish hours. Now I have a sore throat and the sniffles. 
I blame Leo. 

Totally. Worth. It.