I'm Still Here

The words are there, I know they're there.  I know because I hear them swirling around in my brain constantly, trying to escape.  But, when I finally sit down to let them out and try to type or write them down, they all try to leave at once and then it forms a creativity traffic jam and my brain gets all clogged up and my head gets heavy and I just want to lay down on the floor and never move again.

I'm filled with inspiration when I'm driving in the car or reading an article, but when I have a moment to actually sit down and try to produce something, my brain lies to me and tells me that it's not good enough, so why even bother.

So, that's why this post is so discombobulated, I'm just trying to create.  To put something down on paper...so to speak.

May is Mental Health Awareness month.  If you struggle like I do, then you understand the importance of this.  On my good days, I want to hug everyone who is having a bad day and tell them it will get better.  On my bad days, I forget that good days ever existed or will ever exist again.  But, this is me having a not-so-good day reaching out trying to make the day better than it was when I woke up.  if not for me, then for someone.  I got my inspiration from the What I Be Project. It's haunting and beautiful and almost brought me to tears. So, I took my own photo.

If you or someone you care about it struggling, please ask for help.  It's scary, I know. 
Here are some resources I find useful:

-Walk in Our Shoes

My shoes

-Dr. Deb

-Erasing the Distance

-MentalHealth.gov

-Suicide Prevention Lifeline

And if you won't listen to me, will you listen to The Doctor?